It’s like I’ve got this pit in my stomach. I can’t explain why. Because I have no freggin idea as to why. Like, for some reason I think it has to do with the man.
I honestly think I’m over thinking, and actually trying to find something wrong. But the feeling started well last night. I’ve just been getting this vibe from him… like distant. Something’s different.
So I do the usual thing that any curious girl would do: (well I’m not gonna tell you) I mean nothing. Well honestly I think I’m creating it because he’s pretty stupid when it comes to hiding things, and I haven’t found anything hard evidence yet. Maybe its just because I miss him.
He stays late at work almost every day, like at least a half hour to an hour. He had two condoms in his truck, now he tells me that he sold them to someone for five bucks (as to explain why they are gone). I didn’t even know they were gone yet. He doesn’t respond to my texts like he normally does. He got scheduled an extra day this week, which doesn’t make sense because normally companies
don’t won’t schedule you more than 40 hours. Especially retail companies. He started keeping his phone on vibrate.
I’m really hoping its just my insecurities eating me up alive. I hope he’s not really doing anything wrong. Which most of me doesn’t think so, but there’s this pit in my stomach… God I hope I’m wrong.
I have to shower and get to bed. I have to work for two hours tomorrow… wow what a long day.